The power of speaking up..If you have been reading my posts the last few weeks I have been sharing my struggles with dating again. Almost all of it is because of communication and fear.Those two things I think are in a really healthy relationship actually and as such, they have definitely had an impact on mine.
Through all of this I keep thinking what would I tell my daughter? What do I say to my friends? I mean… what do I share with you all?
So… I mustered up a whole lot of courage partnered with a whole lot of Reese’s and told my kinda, sorta, person what I wanted. What I needed.
There were some tears.It was a jumble. A bit of a mess.At one point he asked me if I wanted to write it down.
He listened.Really patiently actually.But I will be honest … I felt terrible. Selfish even. Which I know is crazy. When you are with someone you should be able to speak up, except up until now I have never felt like anyone has wanted to listen.
Here I am a few days later writing about it. Sharing it. Guess what?
Everything is fine.
In fact maybe better than fine because we talked through why I have a hard time speaking up.That in and of itself was incredibly powerful. Still scary. But I think we understand each other better now. Which we need. I need.
I still have absolutely no idea where any of this will land but I am relearning what a healthy relationship looks like and that is powerful too.
Be safe and much love Mommas