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I Gotta Live

You gotta live!

If you are a faithful follower of this page you know we like to give out regular reminders of how you should look out for yourself. Take care of yourself. Take time for yourself.

The reality as Moms it’s just not something we do.

And if we do- the guilt we lay on ourselves or let others lay on us is huge.

That guilt also tends to hold us back.

We are Moms we put everyone first, it’s what we do. It’s how we’re built.

But sometimes life hands you a timetable.

That’s when you can’t sit on your hands anymore and wait.

I feel like what I’m about to write is a constant in my blogs. It’s ok to ask for what you need.

Maybe I write this a lot because I’m not great at it. I struggle to ask for more time. To tell people when I’m hurt. Sad. Jealous. Mad. Even happy. I don’t want to be too much or not enough so I sit on my hands and wait.

Then one day life hands you a timetable.

I’ve always had one.

We all do. Some of us just have timetables written in green neon we can’t control while others get a dry erase board.

Either way.

You gotta live.

I spent a long weekend with some of my favorite humans and came clean about a lot of big things in my life and kept waiting for a shoe to drop that never did.

Instead my people rallied and scolded and put things on the calendar.

I have my reasons for having a tight reign on my life and some are valid but some hold me back.

I made big changes in my life to show my daughter a person who loves you should not hold you back. It’s ironic I don’t seem to love myself enough to do the same.

That ends know.

My timetable is neon green.

One light/letter is already out.

In the words of one of favorite people “I gotta live.”

You do too Mommas,

You do too,

<3 Caprise

Make YOU a Priority!!!!!

Making yourself a priority is difficult. Most days “I don’t wanna”—it doesn’t really matter WHAT it is, I just DON’T WANNA.  This morning about two hours ago was no different…I needed to get up and work out and then I have to clean this entire house, write this blog post, clean my desk and oh yeah…LAUNDRY…freaking never-ending laundry.  So there I sat on top of my bed, drinking coffee, doing some work and thinking about how I did not want to do ANYTHING that I have to do today.  This day is pretty much like EVERY other day for the last 20 years…or more.

If I was RUN by my feelings then absolutely nothing would have been accomplished over the last 2 decades and I would likely be an epic failure…the GOOD news is that I am NOT run by my feelings, in fact they have little to do with my actions.  Apathy comes from giving into the voice that says “I don’t wanna”.  As I said last weekend in my blog, we are like our own breed of Special Forces…The Warrior Moms…we don’t have the luxury to give into “feelings”, we simply must PUSH THROUGH THE BULLSHIT and accomplish what there is to be done.

Back to me this morning…as I am sitting on my bed contemplating all the things that I have to do, a text comes in from one of my friends here and she says “I am getting ready to go walk the hills”—we often walk together as there are SO many hills around our houses and it makes for a really good cardio session.  I quickly decided that walking with her would be more fun than the elliptical so I threw on some clothes and went out to meet her…I must say, it was a little BRISK out there!  (By the way the picture is from the brook this morning down the street from my house…getting to look at that makes being cold worthwhile:)

In the course of our conversation she was telling me how she keeps putting taking care of herself last and that she cannot seem to commit to a schedule for getting her cardio done etc.  She has 4 kids and more often than not puts herself last as I know MANY of us do.  That has got to STOP.  If you go down then everything comes to a halt, so it is well worth you MAKING the time each day to take care of yourself.  Your health is not something to screw around with, trust me…I am watching some friends and family members suffer the effects of years of not taking care of their psychical well-being and their quality of life is not as good as it could be.

Watching what you put into your body and making the time to walk or workout or do yoga or pilates or SOMETHING will pay off for you in SPADES as you age…PLEASE people start making yourselves a PRIORITY.  You are a warrior and in order to keep pushing through the bullshit that comes at you daily you MUST take care of YOU!

-XO, Noelle

A Time For Me To Believe In Myself

A time for me…

At the newly age of fifty and fabulous (which is a story all in itself) with one kid on his own, and my youngest soon to be a Senior in High School, I unexpectedly find myself unemployed, yet unnerved for the first time, which is both soothing and strange for me.

Being a single mother, twenty four years and counting, I have never been afforded the same luxuries in life as some women, by either given the choice to walk away from an underpaid or overworked job in search of a better one, or the really far fetched dream of staying at home!

Is it though, that far fetched? That I could stay at home, doing what I love, and still support my family?! Perhaps not. Perhaps this is a time for me. A time to get my shit together, a time to face my fears, and a time to just jump in, hold my breath (if I have to), and believe, believe in me!

Believing is the difficult part of the equation that most people, especially women, struggle with. The feeling of being unworthy, believing you deserve such a far fetched life seems almost ridiculous from everything we’ve ever been taught as young girls. But is it?

I am blessed to have a mother, who taught me through her own strength and wisdom, to always believe in myself, in my own strength. That people (mainly men) come and go, so plant your own roots, water your own garden and never settle for anything that doesn’t make your heart skip a beat.

I haven’t always listened to my mother, as I stumbled along my own path of poor choices, and settled a time or two along the way, whether in the arms of the wrong man or working on someone else’s dream instead of my own.

So yes, this is a time for me!
A time to remember.
A time to dream.
A time to ask, believe, & receive because I am worthy!

Chase that crazy dream girl, spread your wings, believe in yourself and fly! This is your time! A time for me to take pen to paper and write, my story. A story I do believe will inspire others to take the time for you, to chase your own (crazy) dreams and fly!!

With Light & Love,
Angel A

Find Your Purpose

FInding your purpose

Recently, my daughter and I went to a church service with friends and the topic was Personal Brand Identity. It was an interesting topic to think about. We watched a powerful video about Tim Shaw, a former Tennessee Titans player, who talked about the fact that growing up his brand identity in high school and college and for much of his professional career was that of a great football player. When his body began shutting down and he was diagnosed with ALS, his brand identity changed from a football player to a person with this ALS disease. It took this significant event in his life for him to realize that he had let other people’s perceptions of him become his identity. He came to the realization that he was who he had always been, Tim Shaw, best friend to God.

This story really struck me and I could completely resonate with his words. When my ex-husband and I first separated, I struggled with telling people what was going on in my life because of how it would look to others. Growing up in an Indian household and in the Indian culture, I knew that you keep family things to yourself and what you present to others is a great reflection on not only you, but your parents and how they raised you.  Even once we decided to divorce, it was difficult to talk about what was happening with certain people because of the fear I had about how they would perceive me. Over time, I realized that I had nothing to be ashamed of and that if these people were my real friends, they would still love me and support me because I was me, not just half of a couple. Some friends did fall away and distance themselves. This was one of the things I had feared and it made me feel sad and disappointed and question what was wrong with me. I didn’t understand it at first – I was the same person, wasn’t I? I had to learn that it was ok because they couldn’t be the kind of friend and supporter I needed; I had to make sure that I was surrounding myself with people who were positive and supportive and encouraging.

I was married for almost 18 years and my identity during that period was that of a wife and later, a mother. When the divorce happened, I lost my identity as a wife and that was extremely difficult. It was time to start over and rediscover what I liked again and who I really was as a person. I remember my friend telling me that when she got divorced, she went to the grocery store and was almost paralyzed because she didn’t even know what to buy anymore because she didn’t remember what she liked. She got so used to buying groceries that her husband liked and now she was confronted with the realization that it was just about her and what she wanted. That feeling can be extremely scary and overwhelming at first, but eventually it gets easier and can even become freeing.

For me, a huge milestone in this journey of rediscovery was my Zumba class. I had always loved to dance growing up so this was a perfect fit. At first, I was hesitant to walk into a class by myself where I didn’t know anyone (this was completely out of my comfort zone). The instructor was so welcoming and even though it felt like everyone else knew the routines so well and I had no idea what I was doing, I came back. The more I came back, the easier it got and eventually, I actually knew some of the routines. It took some time, but Zumba allowed me to rediscover my love of dance and without even realizing it, my self-confidence and self-esteem grew to the point where I went from dancing in the back of the class to closer to the front. I even lead dances in my class now and was recently certified to become a Zumba instructor, something I never thought I would do. Most importantly, I gained a whole new support system of wonderful and encouraging friends who I can count on for laughs, inspiration, good food and good times.

I have also found solace in reconnecting with old friends who knew me in high school or college before I got married. There’s an odd feeling of comfort and nostalgia that I can’t describe when I am in the presence of these old friends. I’ve made it a point over the past few years to call up an old friend and catch up or find a way to visit old friends when we’re traveling. It has done great things for my soul.

Each person has to find their own milestones and triggers in their journey, but it’s important to take the time to find out who you really are on the inside – your brand identity, or your purpose in life; God made each of us with a purpose in mind and it’s our job to find out what that purpose is. I’m still working on finding my purpose, but for now, maybe it’s being a desi single working mom who’s doing the best she can to make her girls proud and show them that they can do anything and helping friends who are struggling along the way.

~Laxmi~

 

Follow her at her blog, https://onedesigirlsjourney.wordpress.com/.

Success = Self-confidence and Enthusiasm

“Self-confidence is an essential quality for all worthwhile accomplishments.”   – Napoleon Hill

If you don’t believe in yourself then how can you expect anyone else to believe in you?  No matter what has happened, you must have Faith in your ability to accomplish whatever you want.  Often it is easier to believe in other people, especially when things look dark and difficult–it is during these times that you MUST manufacture confidence in yourself and in your ability to create and take action.  When I say, repeatedly, that nothing is impossible– I absolutely mean that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.  The first step to making the seemingly impossible, possible is to have certainty and confidence that you have whatever it takes to move mountains.  Most people do not succeed because they do not believe they can have or deserve success.

Enthusiasm goes hand-in-hand with self-confidence.  Being self-confident and expressing enthusiasm about what you are doing naturally attracts support and goodwill.  People want to be around people that are confident and happy because it makes them feel better about themselves.

When you are going through difficult times and starting to doubt yourself, call on the people that know you the best (your lifers) to remind you that you have what it takes to turn the tide.  Their FAITH in you will give you something to stand on and it will help you remember who you are.  From that renewed perspective you will be able to MOVE YOUR MOUNTAINS and produce  results.