I feel like the title of this blog is a misnomer. It’s not ok. Things are not ok. I don’t think this is a time to sugarcoat anything.
And that is ok.
Now… I would like to preface this with- now may not be the time of the airing of your grievances. I’m talking more like what is going on in the world.
What’s going on with you.
I would strongly advise against making any hasty decisions you can’t come back from once we are able to be with each other again.
There are laundry lists of do’s and don’ts floating around and I’m going to be honest… I’m pretty sure Gwenyth Paltrow and I are leading much different lives right now just like before.
I need to focus on my daughter. My car payment. Trying to get the motivation to be presentable for a ZOOM meeting. Not learn another language.
If you want to take this time to learn all the things and do all the things you never seem to be able to, that’s fine too.
There is no rule book for this. There are no rules.
Again … Everyone has some strong suggestions.
The biggies seem to be around hair.
My hot take is this, it will grow. Perhaps poorly but it will grow and you know I feel like baseball hats are pretty acceptable right now.
Followed a strong second by how we are homeschooling our children.
Again, it’s going to be ok. Or it’s not and you know what? That’s ok too.
This is a weird time I can’t imagine anyone is doing everything right.
For me personally I need to keep telling myself I am going to be good. There are days I don’t entirely buy into that, but I have to. Even if it’s just a little bit.
Since all this began I have become a reformed insomniac. I sleep through the night hard. I average about seven hours of sleep when I used to only get four.
I am almost always tired.
I have had a few days where the reality that because I am considered high risk means I can’t leave my house, not even to get groceries. That reality has meant a solid cry.
That’s ok too.
Ok is not good.
Ok is not bad.
But it’s something. It means there is an opportunity for it to get better and that’s great.
I believe it will get great.
I’m not sure if I’m ok with how long it may take to get back there.
And that’s ok.
Much love Mommas.