What life was like before?? It’s funny… but at times it’s hard to remember that it has only been a little over a month since our quarantine began. It almost feels as if the last month has turned into the norm. I wonder if I’ll be able to go back m to my “old” life..
There have been some hard days in the last month, when I have felt very defeated and did not accomplish what I needed.. But when I look back to my life two months ago, I wonder how I did it all.
I was getting up every morning by 5 working out at a gym, getting the kids to school, going to my job, then after work I would pick up kids from school, run to activities for hours, and then get home after 8pm… and If I did not have my kids, I would work my second job. There was no down time. Our schedule was packed every day. And I didn’t mind it. It was just how life was…we were like a lot of families.
And now I get up around 7, I go to the kitchen to start my workday, then I get the kids set on doing their schoolwork. I teeter back and forth all day with working and helping the kids with what they need. My evenings are filled with walks or just hanging out with the kids. And a lot of nights, I’m laying in bed by 8 pm, watching tv or reading.
There are no kid activities or running from place to place at night. My life has a completely different feel. We are learning to move at a different pace. And I must admit I’m starting to really enjoy it.
This was one of the first Easter Sunday’s that my kids and I did not rush to church to then drive an hour to my family’s house each way. As much as I missed seeing my family. I was very content and happy being at home. We wore our pajamas and sweatpants… The kids and I made dinner, had an Easter egg hunt, watched movies, and just hung out. It was really true contentment.
At times, I think maybe this was a sign that my life was too busy and I needed a change. I hated feeling so rushed trying to get from work to school pick up to sports. We tried not to live like that, but at times the constant rushing took over. I don’t miss every minute of my day being planned out… and I’m a planner by habit.
So it’s hard for me to realize I’m ok with this… I have always planned everything out day by day and week by week. And now we plan very little. The first couple weeks were hard for me. I did not know how to handle not having any real commitments. It would make me anxious thinking that we had nothing planned. I wondered what I would do without anything to do.
What would I do with all this time???
And then it all started to fall into place.. We don’t live minute by minute on a strict schedule anymore. I guess I really enjoy just having the flexibility of our life..
We can sleep in 5 minutes longer on some days, we can decide to eat dinner at any time, or we can go for an extra mile on our walk.
Summer will be here soon and as much as I miss the sports and activities, part of me is really looking forward to a slower summer. A summer of enjoying our time at home. We can sit outside late at night and have bonfires, we will not be at the soccer field until 9pm and eating dinner in the car.
I have an extra minute now for all of those questions my kids are constantly asking me. I think myself and my kids have all learned to just take extra time for ourselves. We move at a slower pace and we take more time for each other. Enjoy it!!