Three years ago I had the idea that I should put out a yearly workbook to help you guys design a better new year…I worked on it a little but it didn’t materialize into form. Today I completed the outline for that workbook which will be in your hands by October. It was a process, one that I could not really see because back in 2016 I thought it was a failed idea. God had more things to teach me before that workbook would be all it could be, I didn’t know that then…I could not see.
Often we are in the middle of a process that is bringing us to greater good yet in the middle it looks like a hot mess…it’s hard, sad, confusing…we feel inept, like we failed and we think that life is not working out for us the way that it should. We want instant gratification and quick results…at almost 51 I can promise you that anything worth anything does not come without doing the work to earn it. Even though I know this and understand it, I still want everything to happen sooner rather than later and patience is still something that I ‘mostly’ lack.
I never used to be good at the “trust the process” thing…people would say that and it would piss me off…in my opinion the process should hurry the F up. That didn’t do any good of course, things take as long as they take and I saw that I could either learn to accept that and embrace it or I could just be aggravated all the time.
About 4 years ago I really started to learn the gift of trusting the process, by this time in my life I had seen enough things turning out well to know that if I was living my life right things ultimately would work out for me. To me trusting that life has a process means trusting that God is always working things out for the good and I can rarely see the whole plan at any given time.
That means that I have to let go of my burning wish to control every freaking thing and TRUST that things are lining up and occurring the way that they are meant to. This also means understanding that my way is the inferior way…my will and my way are simply the means that my mind uses to try and control every thing…I have come to understand that there are a LOT of things that I cannot control and I have exhausted myself for almost 5 decades trying to make things bend to my will.
Not anymore, after the car accident last year in August I clearly came to see that there is very little that I can control—-HOWEVER what was meant to harm me in all of that turned out to BLESS me—-every, single aspect of it. I learned so much from that reckoning. (For those of you that don’t know, I was driving along minding my own business when a construction truck and trailer jumped their lane and came at me head on…I saw it coming and I was able to swerve and avoid a head on, however they completely sheared off the entire drivers side of my brand new car including the wheel…by the GRACE of God I was able to climb out my moonroof and I made a complete recovery, replaced the car etc). That incident taught me truly that I had no control over some things.
What I learned was really how to trust the process, at the time that all looked like a terrible mess and as I said it turned out to bless me in every way and really, truly changed the game for me—-I learned so much about certain things—- it was a process that in the middle I could not see—-yet now a year later I understand what God was doing.
That incident, moving back to VT and leaving my corporate job are all situations that have schooled me in “trusting the process” in ALL of those things I could not see to the end in the middle, in ALL of those situations I did not understand the entire plan—I had to step moment-by-moment trusting that everything was working as it should….and it WAS…
My message to you…TRUST THE PROCESS…you are being led where you are supposed to go even when you cannot see…in these situations you must walk by FAITH and not by sight. Keep breathing, keep moving…better things are coming.