Was I paying it forward out of love for my fellow man or out of fear from my past? Whichever it was, it made me smile. Made him smile. And caused another to take notice. I was grateful that I could help.
I must have made a decision when I was a young girl, to never be without money. Never to be in a position of NOT affording life. Life as I had been living in. Life as a young girl in a safe, warm, loving home had at her fingertips. Life was good. Until I was introduced to chicken from a can, powdered milk and big jars of peanut butter. I don’t really remember why and I’m sure my mom explained it to me…. but as a young girl… I did not like that one bit. And That…. I think is the reason I promised to NOT be without money.
I was in the grocery line the other day and the man in front of me didn’t have enough on his food stamp card to pay for his groceries, so he started to take things out of the bags. As I stood there….it came from deep down in my belly right out of my mouth…. “oh NO, that is NOT happening”. “Oh no. Uh uh. Put those groceries back in your bag.” And I paid for them. No thinking, no contemplating, no wondering, just BOOM *** “Pay for it.” Is all I heard in my head. It must have been surmountable to him because he couldn’t say thank you enough.
I was grateful I could help, grateful he got to keep the food he needed to eat, grateful for God’s good and wonderful ways. And so so so grateful for the cans of chicken, powdered milk and big jars of peanut butter from childhood.
Your God Girl,