Sometimes in our life we can want something so bad that we put things on pause to try to make sure it happens. A lot of the time though that is how you lose not only what you want but also lose your peace. More recently for me there was someone who came into my life. I developed feelings for that person, and I waited. I waited for this person to open up to me the way I did them; I waited for them to tell me how they felt like I did them; I waited for a direction, all while my businesses, my self improvement and my goals all fell to the wayside.
This person isn’t a bad person but I had to stop waiting. My peace of mind and forward movement was at stake. I still care about this person deeply but how things are right now are painful for me. Instead of waiting I am holding a place, a place they may or may not fill, but I know if that person is meant to be in my life they will fill that place when the time is right. In the meantime I am working as hard as ever. I’m growing past a certain set back I’ve had, and I am crushing business and personal goals.
I’m living my life and not holding still. Knowing whats meant for me will always find a way to me.
Always be unapologetically true to yourself,
In 24 days, I will end an eleven year season in the state of Tennessee. As I was packing today I felt like I was walking through time, remembering all of the events of the last 11 years here. Ending a season is always bittersweet and I think it’s good to recall the lessons learned within each season of your life. That being said, I thought I would document the lessons learned in Tennessee and share them with you.
Here we go…Lessons learned in the last decade:
- You CAN, in fact overcome ANY THING with prayer and a change in your thinking about the circumstance or situation…and I do mean ANY THING
- I am stronger than I thought
- I can survive betrayal of the worst degree and not be bitter
- I can forgive people without having to keep them in my life
- I can pray for people that have tried to harm me
- I can be alone and be happy
- Being alone is better than trying to turn myself into someone I don’t know to stay with someone that I don’t belong with
- GOD does, in fact, have everything under control
- GOD makes ways where there are no ways
- Trusting GOD will never, ever fail me
- Never get involved with someone that is not free to be involved, if someone is doing something else know you are worth enough to walk away until they finish it.
- Never start a relationship on the tail end of an old relationship
- Don’t jump from one ending to a new beginning, take a space to heal, breathe and evaluate
- Work hard and then work harder
- Be yourself no matter what
- Do not enable
- Do not over give
- Let people sit in their shit sometimes because that is the only way that they will learn
- Don’t try to fix people, it won’t work
- Watch ACTIONS, don’t listen to words and when you see red flags in the actions, freaking PAY ATTENTION
- TRUST YOUR GUT
- TRUST YOUR FIRST REACTIONS to people, there is a warning there, HEED it
- If it doesn’t feel right, it isn’t—walk away
- Don’t make excuses for dysfunctional shit just get away from it
- Be kind to people
- Stop complaining and realize that words matter—life and death in the power of your tongue—choose words wisely
- Don’t settle
- I need to listen more sometimes and talk less
- Pay attention to people and think about how they will feel before you say or do something that effects them
- I am not easy to help
- Everything has a price
- My relationship with GOD is my most important one
- The people that really love you will never walk away from you, no matter what a shit you are
- BE GRATEFUL
Really, I grew up in Tennessee, I came here at 36 for work with no family and a 3 year old son…I was scared to death yet I knew that I needed to make my way as a single mom and the opportunity was one that I felt led to take. I can remember lying in bed on nights during that first year scared as hell wondering how it would all turn out. I had lived around my family my whole life and now I was here in a new place with nobody. I just kept praying and putting one foot in front of the other and I made a whole life here, made friends that became family and it all turned into an amazing season…there were some hard parts, even some terribly devastating parts…yet looking back over the 11 years—all in all it has been an amazing time of being blessed and being able to bless so many others. I came into my own here, in Boston (my hometown) we would say that I made my bones in Tennessee.
Now just like GOD called me here 11 years ago, He is now calling me back to New England and so back I go in 24 days to see what this new chapter will bring.
And so Tennessee this is where I leave you…thank you for keeping me safe, thank you for teaching me that I can do more than what I thought I could, thank you for all of the people that you sent into my life here, thank you for the memories and the lessons, for the people I have loved and for the people that taught me lessons, thank you for teaching me to trust GOD more, thank you for all of it, the good, the bad and the ugly parts…you have made me what I am now and for that I am so grateful…until we meet again…