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The Lady By The Sea

The Lady By The Sea

by Kad

I close my eyes and inhale the smell of the ocean breeze

it tickles my mind back to childhood memories

those long hot summer days

kickball, swimming, and sunbathing

a simple, carefree, joyful time

my happy space

my happy place

so why such a sad face?

I stare at the ripples

layers of the ocean blue

each one could represent a year or two

the transcending colors

they fade from the darkest black

to the bright sky of lavender blue

just a reflection of the deepest darkest colors of fear

the fear deep inside the core of me

I spend many hours almost every day

sitting there thinking my life away

some days my eyes trickle tears, rolling down my face

dampening my skin tasting like  the salted ocean sea

other days I sit and absorb the heat

as it warms the deep chill in my bones

always scared and always alone

craving that warmth

as if a deep strong hug

given to me from the rays of the sun

that deep dark place in me

the one that I never let anyone else see

it comes to me

my lady by the sea

Could it be he saw inside

is that why he left

did he see her?
That scared little girl

helpless, alone, deep inside of me

like a wave in a storm

dark and angry

thrusting forward

arching, raging, swimming to the shore

then gently easing back

then rushing and regaining power

just to land again on the shore

clutching, clawing, crawling,  grasping ,reaching

always wanting more

Sitting there staring at the ocean some more

trying to regroup, release, remove the darkness that is stored in my core

trying to figure out what am I here for?

Sitting by the shore

the lady by the sea

is just that little scared girl

sitting here inside of me

cherishing those happy memories

Still wondering why you left me?