I’m sitting in my backyard reading “It’s Not Supposed to Be This Way” by Lisa Terkeurst for inspiration to my life, to my healing, to my blog. She speaks about disappointment and how easy it is to fill the sadness with nonsense.
I have found myself filling my disappointments with shopping. In hopes that those sassy shoes or that amazing outfit would bring me the happiness I longed for. Anything to not be IN my sadness. And they did !! But only for a little while. Only temporarily. Only on the surface. When the excitement wore off, the sadness re-emerged it’s ugly head, shouting it’s lies of deception and ridicule. Reminding me of my faults and disappointments. And not caring one iota of how it left me feeling. THAT my friend, is the enemy.
I have learned over the years that the enemy is a liar, looking for the weakest place, in me, to attack. And the enemy doesn’t come to just harm us and make us feel bad, oh no…..the enemy comes to kill, steal and destroy.
As much as we might try to fight off the snearing and sneaky ways…we can somehow be captivated by it. Wanting to hear what else needs to be said, what other lies exist. But if we’re not careful the sweet taste of knowing one more crumb, might lure us back in to the sadness we so long to escape.
So you ask, what do we do with the sadness left after disappointment? I’ve learned to walk through it, to embrace it, learn more about me from it. Then see where am I REALLY weak and does it matter to me and if it does, what can I do to grow stronger in that area? If it truly is a lie to keep me tied down, then to find the TRUTH there and proclaim it over and over and over again. I’ve seen the disappointment turn into a valuable lesson. Again & Again & Again.
I hope you do too.