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Red Lipstick…

I used to wear red lipstick more. I used to be more fearless and less worried about what other people thought about me. I used to feel like I had game…a lot more game then I feel like I have right now. Things happen, marriages don’t work out and people that you counted on betray and disappoint you and it wears on you, you retract a little bit from who you were and then a little bit more.
Then you wake up one day and you think “who am I now?”—I can’t go back because I am not ‘that’ girl anymore, I know too much, I have seen too much and I have walked through too much.
So, you are no longer the girl of the past and you are not the lady that was stuck in situations that weren’t working, you can now pay for yourself, call your own shots and make your own decisions. You have a teenager, you have important jobs, you help people and yet you don’t stop much to think about what you need…because if you did you might not like the answers that you came up with.
Your best friend since 7th grade reminds you how crazy and fearless you both used to be and you think what happened to those girls? Perhaps this is a chronic question for a woman in her later 40’s—who am I now? Who do I want to be and what do I want in the next half of my life and what will I need to give up or change to get there.
The one constant, the one thing that never lets me down is my Faith in GOD, in something bigger and smarter than me that has saved my ass countless times…saved me from my stupidity and my ignorance. Thank God.
The only thing stopping us from being more and doing more is us…I think I will go buy some red lipstick and I think you should do the same. We can make the next half of our lives whatever we want it to be, we are past having to accept things that are unacceptable and we are past putting up with people that don’t treat us correctly. We might not be ‘that’ girl anymore, yet it will be fun to see what women we turn out to be…so put your red lipstick on and let’s figure it out together…