This week has been hard for me. It has definitely improved. I am listening to a new song by my favorite band basking from the glow of their performance on Saturday Night Live. Knowing in February my Valentine will be a new album.
I have happy ears. I treated myself to a homemade Vanilla Latte for good measure and am proud of myself for picking that skill up along the way over the last seven months.
But back to this. I keep a lot of my life private even from my daughter. She’s a smart cookie though and knows what’s up. She sees more than I give her credit for. Also, I wear my heart on my sleeve so she really sees things.
She has been opening up to me a lot lately about everything. So yesterday at lunch I asked her point blank what she thought about me dating.
When my daughter was little she made it very clear I was never to remarry or date. I think there are too many Disney movies with wicked step parents.
As she has gotten older her Dad has been very open about dating, and she has friends who have parents who are remarried and have blended families.
She looked at me and said I want you to be happy. But Mom I want someone good enough for you.
I love Dad but he sleeps until noon.
Oh honey, people can be different and still work.
I know Mom you deserve someone who appreciates you.
You don’t think your Dad did?
Not like he should have. Mom you get up with me. Get us going, go to work, come home, hang out. Do it over again. All day everyday.
Well …I do take naps.
Mom you know what I mean.
And you’re cute. Someone cute.
She hugs me and heads for her room.
Stops and turns around.
Mom, you deserve someone who will make you happy. They shouldn’t make you sad. If they make you sad. They gotta go.
My beautiful sage goes to her room and I hear playing video games with her friends.
Mommas, my heart is full and she taught me a lesson. A few. It’s ok to talk to her. Obviously some editing. She wants to talk to me. I am really excited she is talking to me.
Much love Mommas