I’d Rather Not

I’d rather NOT do anything today…I’d rather not go workout, write this blog post, have gotten up at 5:15am to keep my ‘new’ regime on track, I’d rather not have talked to clients this morning, cleaned up the kitchen dishes, unpacked the amazon boxes and folded the laundry that was in the living room…

I’d rather not figure out how to help the family members that are suffering from their own lack of discipline, I’d rather not keep helping my son figure out his life…I’D RATHER NOT.

However…I am wise enough to know that this is just a feeling that I am having, a passing thing, it is not who I am, it is not what I will do, it doesn’t ‘mean’ anything….it’s a feeling and my life is not run by my feelings…my life is run by my intentions and my promises…thank God for that.

If you have been reading my blogs or watching me on Sunday mornings you know that I have instituted a new habit of getting up at 5:15am and getting into the gym early—weekdays—in order to make sure that I get up, Tracy (who blogs for us and is my bff) and I have a quick call at 5:20am—I have news, we’d both rather not on most of the days.  Yet we DO…we do it whether we ‘feel’ like it or not, we do it because we are pushing ourselves on purpose…we know that nothing new can be created by doing the same old things and we decided that we wanted to create amazing things for 2020.  Our friendship spans over 30 years and we know that our word is all that matters, we know how to produce the result no matter what, no matter how we feel in the moment or what we think.  This is the stuff that keeps your edges sharp which I talked about in last week’s blog.

Left to our own devices without ‘checking’ our behaviors or disciplining ourselves in uncomfortable ways we end up with dull edges…muddling along with things undone piling up all around us…how do you think that a hoarder becomes trapped by their own stuff…one box or pile at a time.

How does someone gain an extra 100 pounds???…one pound at a time.

Without checkpoints in our behavior we will go for the ways of least resistance…

“I will clean it tomorrow”

“I will workout tomorrow”

“I will fix it later”

“I’ll deal with it when I feel like it”

These are the songs that we sing ourselves and then before you know it we turn around and things are out of hand and much harder to fix/change.

I was always told that in this life we will suffer because it is how we GROW and that I could either CHOOSE my suffering or the Universe would bestow it upon me.  I would much rather CHOOSE my hard than have it foisted on me.

And so I do crazy shit like keep score on myself and get up early and force myself to workout etc etc…

Personally, I don’t want my edges to dull and I am willing to do whatever it takes to create the reality that I want…are you?

Something worth thinking about.

See you next week.

XO, Noelle

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2 thoughts on “I’d Rather Not

  1. Tracy McMenimen

    Oh girlfriend…..I’d rather not get out of my ever so most wonderfully comfortable bed to put my feet on the ground at 5:15 to only have my eyes blinded by the piercing light bulb because the sun isn’t even up at this hour. I’d rather not call myself out let alone have you call me out, I’d rather not do it at that particular moment, BUT I DO! I do because I’d rather not… suffer the consequences of breaking my word, or selling out on myself or listening to the opponent telling me to stay in bed and filling my head with lies. so I DO and I am ever so grateful to be doing it with you. xoxo.

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    1. staff Post author

      Just seeing this…thank you for always being willing to be my partner in challenging ourselves to go UP high. Love you. XO

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