Finding your new place…sometimes you need a change… I had gone to the same church since my kids were in preschool. We had switched to this church because it offered many programs for little kids and they could do to preschool there also.
I had volunteered for Sunday school for all of my kids throughout their preschool and elementary years. I had joined and participated in a bible group for years. I had also volunteered at the preschool during their preschool years.
We had attended first communions and faith milestones together at that church. We sat through so many Christmas programs and music concerts it felt never ending.
And after my divorce, it felt so different to be there. I felt like I didn’t fit in anymore. I slowly started to volunteer less for preschool. I started to attend church less when I didn’t have my kids. It just didn’t feel like my place anymore.
I didn’t feel comfortable going to church there anymore. It was too close for comfort with my ex and his new wife attending the same church. I really wanted to feel comfortable attending.
My life was not the same as the past and I kinda felt like I didn’t fit in there anymore. I know I wrote many times about changes in my life after divorce and learning new path. I wanted to really grow and follow in my faith. This was a time in my life that I really needed to be able to feel comfortable with it. In the past, I had just gone along with the faith that worked best for my family or children. I had picked my church for my kids. This time I wanted it to be more about me.
So I started looking for a new church… my friends had recommended a church, so at first I started listening to the messages online. I listened to them for about 6 months before I actually attended in person. I really could relate to the messages. It was so different that I could relate to the messages and felt like sometimes they were meant for me. I knew that I didn’t want to just jump into a new church without it feeling really like home.
When I first attended in person, I was so nervous to attend alone. No matter what it is in my life, attending alone is always so scary for me. I went with friends at first to feel comfortable. But then one weekend I went alone. It was so great. I felt comfortable and at peace. I had found my new home.
After that, I now go alone on the weekends without my kids. Its my time. This is one of the things that I really look forward to doing alone. I have many things that I like doing with friends in my life, but attending church alone has been so comforting for me.
I know I write a lot about learning to do new things alone or making new changes. Finding new activities, interests, or hobbies that bring you joy or peace is so exciting. I push myself to do these things because it is so out of my comfort zone from my past…