I would like to tell you about my friend Bill. You may know him. He’s made a few movies. Big sports buff. Very quirky and he got his start on one of my favorite television shows.
When things in my life were feeling their lowest I started looking for positive outlets.
Me being me I needed them. It couldn’t be a glass of wine that would easily turn into a bottle. It couldn’t be a beautiful pastry my sweet tooth doesn’t ever seem to know when to stop.
It couldn’t be a trip to Target because it would mean a cart full of things I have no budget for.
It couldn’t be a night out because it can’t.
I listen to music.
Watch movies, but I will be honest I am also easily distracted.
I began digging deeper.
Looking for those things that would fill the gaps but wouldn’t lend themselves to my somewhat self destructive old habits.
Dear friends, I’ve sugar coated them. My bad habits.
Maybe a blog for another day.
Around this same time I watched the Razor’s Edge and Stripes. Two decidedly different movies from Bill Murray.
I mentioned to a friend how amazing I thought Bill Murray was. He suggested I read The Tao of Bill Murray.
My new friendship was born. Bill just doesn’t know it.
I also started digging into some amazing quotes from his.
As silly as it sounds these quotes have me some perspective I needed.
“Everything happens for a reason. Sometimes the reason is that you’re stupid and make bad decisions.”
Welp… lol, yes.
But this one, this is the stuff.
“Don’t think about your errors or failures, otherwise you’ll never do a thing.”
That is exactly what started happening. I got so bogged down by all of the things that went wrong, I either didn’t do anything or did WAY too much.
I always looked for the other ball to drop. The bad.
I keep saying this but not only is 48 my year of no filter it’s also the year I work hard at happy. The year maybe I can give that happy to other people too. As it has been to me in so many ways. One in particular a picture of one of my Chewbaccas with the man himself. It’s my screensaver and it makes me smile.
There are still going to be bad days, but to paraphrase my friend Bill… maybe it will be a day that a slice of pizza and cold beer can make feel better.
Much love Mommas