Masculine Femininity…I was reading my devotional this morning and it talked about the drive, the doing, the go-go-go that we can easily live with every day. I am realizing, as I sit here, how different my life is now, than it was a few decades ago.
Growing up in the Boston area, I was surrounded by that mentality. Go. Get. Do. And I took it on like a tight leather glove. I had a FT job working 9-5 in Corporate America. Working my way up the corporate ladder, stepping on whoever I had to step on, getting where I was going and being dang proud of my success. I learned at a young age that if I wanted anything in my life I had to grab the bull by the horns and go get it.
I also had a PT job a few nights during the week and on the weekends working at a local restaurant/bar. I raked in the money as the bartenders acknowledged…I was one of the best. They called me BoomBoom, as I zoomed around the bar selling more drinks than 3 other waitresses put together. I got it done AND had soooooo much fun in the process. The PT job brought out the joy in my heart while the FT job brought out the drive in my blood.
As I sit here today, 900 miles from Boston, now living in Fort Wayne, I can clearly see how the personality of Boston molded me into a woman on a mission, with tenacity, discipline, and gumption. My masculine energy took over as a single mom. The masculine essence of being organized, goal oriented, accomplishing, doing, etc. is what allowed me to raise my son on my own.
But that girl changed over time. I realize now that it was necessary for me to survive. I do not live to survive now… I live for love and heart felt moments, and happiness surrounding me. I live with feminine essence engulfing me, the soft, wild, captivating energy. The relaxed life with a space full of giving and receiving light, joy and radiance. I still have masculine tendencies which help me get the lawn mowed and the pictures hung. But it’s my feminine tendencies I love most.