The lonely hearts club is tough. I recently came across a quote: psychology says the person who tries to keep everyone happy often ends up feeling the loneliest.
There are days, more often than not I feel this in my bones.
My day job is a director of a large childcare center- so it goes without saying I take care of littles and honestly their parents.
I come home and I take care of my daughter.
I work really hard not to be a burden to others, but be available should anyone need me. I want the people in my life to be happy, even though I realize it’s an incredibly tall and unrealistic order.
Along the way, I’ve become so hyper focused on work and my daughter. I spend a lot of my downtime alone.
I have a person in my life, but our schedules make it hard to see each other.
My closest friends ….schedules sometimes don’t line up.
Also, I know I’m not alone in this. My soul sister and I had this very conversation- how alone we feel sometimes. Thank goodness we both seem to sense when the other needs a phone call.
Or one of my daughter’s friends Mom tells me as she dropped her daughter off at my house for a slumber party that she was going to see a good friend for the first time in three years!
It’s not just adults either. During said slumber party- several of the girls remarked how happy they were to see each other. It may be the only time all summer.
While I appreciate my quiet moments- too many can really start to wreak havoc on me. I need people. I need my people. I have a hard time admitting that.
I love my life and appreciate everything I have, but there are times where it’s glaringly obvious I need some adult time.
I am a strong, independent person but even us caregivers need someone to take care of us. Even if it’s to meet up for coffee for a half hour. Even if it’s to text. To call. To send a hilarious card in the mail.
Mommas fight for that time. Speak up. It doesn’t make you weak. We all need a someone and some time to just be. There is no shame in asking for those things.
It’s ok to want to talk to someone you don’t spend 24 hours with lol.
In the meantime remember who you are when you’re feeling low and lonely- you’re someone’s Mom.
That’s some magical stuff right there.