Let That S*&% Go!…
What I am about to share may seem surprising considering I often riff about the fact I tend to hold on to things and over analyze.
However, in my journey of over analyzing I’m learning there is a whole lot I need to let go. I’ve talked about this before. Now that I’m actually doing it, it’s been kind of amazing the difference it’s made in my life.
Less stress for starters.
I have also started speaking up. Putting space between myself and things that aren’t working for me. People included.
Stress is a silent killer and it’s amazing the things that can help it creep in. It’s sad who might hold the door open.
It is also sad the things I have let get to me. It’s taken some very frank conversations with some people I love and trust a whole lot, to realize sometimes I feed into my self doubt and insecurities. I assume the worst. I listen to the voice inside my head and sometimes the voice of others who I absolutely should not.
Rather than take a moment and stop and think about what is upsetting me.
I believe the worst and for awhile there I had a team of cheerleaders agreeing with me.
Not to say there have been things that have happened that definitely have caused me to put the barbed wire up around my heart sometimes and unfortunately scrutinize things I just shouldn’t.
Not everyone in my life is going to hurt me. Just because someone else did.
Not everyone is going to lie to me just because someone else did.
Not everything is going to fall apart.
Not everyone is out to get me.
I am lovable even when I don’t feel like I am.
This is whole thing, life it’s not a competition.
People who love and care about you should never make you feel like it is.
I should never feel like it is.
Because it isn’t.
It really is a journey.
A crazy, bumpy one with some serious twists and turns but at the end of the day it’s mine and as long as I’m happy and G is happy,the rest of it…
Well I’m letting it go.
I hope when you have those moments, or days you can too Mommas.