I turned 48 in November. As I do every year I made myself a promise.
This would be the year of no filter.
I started simply. I removed Snapchat and any photo editing apps from my electronics.
When I did take a picture I added a cheeky caption- “me in my bathroom while my child is getting ready for bed.”
Surprisingly my friends were into it.
I also did this in a response to strengthen my confidence. I still struggle. I am not going to tell you I don’t. I am not a size five. I just cut my hair off and I’m covered in tattoos. I am not the stereotype of what sometimes our world tells us is attractive.
And I know I’ve sang this song before, but sometimes there will be a wobble and I need a reminder.
I also have a daughter. What am I saying to her by editing my photos before posting them? It’s one thing to not post a photo because my eyes are closed or maybe my smile is a bit goofy. But to change it to the point I don’t look like me.
I can’t show her that.
Although, I do like the filter that puts tacos around my head.
There is a great quote “in a society that profits from self doubt, liking yourself is a rebellious act.”
Every week I write these blogs encouraging you all to love yourselves meanwhile I’m struggling.
That’s my secret to share in this year of no filter.
I am a fabulous cheerleader for others.
Me- I need to work on.
So with each picture I post in color, without a fun Snapchat filter, I’m learning to love the freckled, wrinkled face staring back at me.
Look Mommas if you dig the animal ears, you do you. Seriously. But you are gorgeous with or without those ears.