Eat The Cake…
My last couple blogs I have put my heart on a platter. I have done something I am incredibly uncomfortable doing. Shared. Intimate pieces of my life.
And I’m about to share some more…
This time it’s the other side of me.
Because, the next time I sit down to write one of these. I will officially be a year older.
I will be forty eight in fact. Two more years and I hit the big fifty.
I get teased because I don’t hate Birthdays. I relish them actually, not that I really do anything over the top to celebrate. I think maybe a few years ago I did. It’s usually pretty peaceful. Something involving yummy food and my daughter. If I’m lucky cake. If I’m really lucky an adult beverage.
To me, each year is my reminder that I accomplished something I was told I couldn’t. I was a preemie and have a congenital heart condition. My whole life I have been told “someone with your condition won’t.” Then I do.
There is a fantastic quote and I’m paraphrasing “when someone tells you no. Do it twice and take pictures.”
As scary as it can be. I have been working really hard at living my life that way.
From little things like changing my hair. Getting my nose pierced.
Going to concerts for bands I would normally never go to. I’ll explain… I’m a punk, pop lady who found herself not too long ago with a bunch of her favorites at a metal concert. By the way, I had a blast.
To big things. Who I spend my time with. Rebuilding my financial future.
Life is precious, it’s ok to push boundaries and sometimes step outside of your box.
I have also strongly started embracing who I am.
Painting, reading, embroidery. Yup… I love embroidery. I joke with my person that I am a Golden Girl in training .
I have an unhealthy obsession with tacos. I am on a quest for the perfect mascara. At almost 48 I’ve started goofing with fake eyelashes and winged eyeliner because I’ve always wanted to.
That’s my point…
Embrace those things that make you – YOU, but don’t be afraid to do something that maybe you wouldn’t normally.
Eat the cake
Wear those fabulous earrings
By the special creamer for your coffee
In the infamous words of my favorite rockstar “ I’m learnin’ to walk again. I believe I’ve waited long enough.”
My dream for my future is a beautiful velour track suit, a pair of gorgeous prescription sunglasses driving a golf cart around a senior home by the ocean with my grandchildren giggling by my side. It’s a future at one point I was told I couldn’t have.
Mommas we are allowed to be more or stay exactly as we are. That’s the wonderful gift that each birthday gives us. A yearly celebration of who we are.