All I need to do is lose 5 lbs of weight, I am only drinking alcohol on weekends, I am going to drink a glass of lemon water before each meal, I am only going to eat lettuce for lunch… yep, these are the things I would tell myself over and over again every Sunday Night for the last couple years.
About 6 years ago, I lost over 40lbs from a weight loss program. I was finally at a weight that I was comfortable with maintaining. I had gained tons of self confidence and felt great about myself. I was 100% committed to losing the weight and it was a top priority for me.
I knew that I would have to move into the maintaining phase once I hit my goal weight. However, maintaining that goal weight was even harder than losing the weight. I had to still follow the program and it was really tough. It’s even harder than losing because this was now my life.
So, over the last couple years I have gained about 10 lbs of my weight back. However, every week I would struggle with trying to get my body back to that magical number that I was at when I hit my goal. I stressed over this….every week I would try to get back on the wagon and by Wednesday I would fall off. It affected how I left about myself and my self confidence. I would beat myself up over it all week.
And then I realized that I just wasn’t 100% committed to being at that magical number as I had been years ago. It was an unrealistic goal for me. I will probably never get back to that weight… why? Because right now I like to enjoy myself. I like to have a drink some nights. I like to have pizza with my kids, and I like cake. I am running kids everywhere and my lifestyle has changed.
However, what it comes down to is this… back then weight loss was a top priority for me and now… I have other priorities. It does not mean I can not do it, however It would have to be the top priority for me in my life. Back then, I would have spent hours meal planning and prepping for the week. Today, I spend hours shopping with my teenagers, running to sporting events, socializing with my friends, and writing about my life…it’s all about priorities and what’s important to you.
I realized I could beat myself up for it every week or just come to terms. I was not putting in the work needed to reach that goal each week. I had to be realistic and not expect to magically lose a lb each week when I was not following my eating plan. Especially when my dinner consisted of popcorn and wine. Weight loss is hard and you do not magically lose weight without a consistent plan and a lot of self control. I had to finally be real with myself.
I am happy with my life and my body. I am healthy and I still workout every day. I think I have mentioned before about how exercise is just part of a routine for me, so that is routine in my life. However, I set little realistic goals to keep me satisfied with where I am at…like starting to drink water before each meal or I started not eating after 8pm during the week.
I added in these small little goals each week and that made a huge difference. I was proud of accomplishing those instead of setting unrealistic goals of losing so many lbs every week.
I am not at that magical number on the scale and that is ok. I have a range that I continue to stay between and that works for me. I have learned to not beat myself up every Monday morning because of what I indulged in over the weekend. I have learned to be happy with how I am and enjoy my life.