I’m not sure if it happens consciously or subconsciously, but our hurts can cause us to lay brick by brick till we have a wall around our heart. One minute there’s a few and the next thing we know, there’s a few dozen.
Bricks of anger, upset & regret.
Bricks of jealousy, envy & unruliness.
Bricks of stuffing, ignoring & belittling.
Bricks of drama, discord & accusations.
Bricks of chaos, judgment & unforgiveness.
You get the idea. Before you know it you need a step ladder to continue laying the brick. The mortar sets and the wall becomes a great barrier from any more hurts. Or is it? Do you feel secure in your world, walled off with The Self? Walled up with your speculations & assumptions of what might happen if you trust, believe or hope again? Walled up from any more hurt that just might work it’s way into your space, into your veins, into your heart?
Close your eyes and imagine the hurt you feel and know that if the hurt can’t penetrate through the brick wall, neither can the love.
To have love in our lives, we have to be open & receptive. Willing to risk. THAT is where love can grow. Love grows in the soil of vulnerability. It grows in the assurance & certainty of how your life choices just might go extremely well.
Is today the day to get out the chisel? To begin removing, brick by brick, as you learn how to protect your heart without making the wall higher, without walling yourself from the outside world. Learn to teach your heart, to listen to the prompts that feel yucky and learn to understand why they shut you down and how you can work through them to a place of self love, self respect, self care.
Your God girl